I wake up this morning tired after a restless night of chaotic dreams
I don’t remember the plots, I just remember the feelings
Some days I love you in a way that frightens me
Other days, in loving you, nothing frightens me at all
Peace can be as scary as problems sometimes
I think we forget that
How to find the trust that the treasures will stay
How to lean into all of the good that’s on its way to us
I roll over and am cradled in the nook of your arm, one leg out of the covers, one leg in
I know you know I’ve had bad dreams
You kiss my head and stroke my arm in your waking
I stay through my alarm
I don’t move to get my usual coffee
I don’t roll out of bed I stay
Just in your arms
Until the last minute that I can
You kiss me as I stumble, full of headache, out of bed
You tell me it’s ok
Tonight, we will fold back into our sheets and into each other’s arms
As we have for hundreds of nights before this one
As we will for hundreds more
You will lie in bed and lay out your arm
An invitation that I crawl into, as I read my book and you read the news
And we will tangle our feet
And tonight I will dream in Italian,
My demons put back to sleep
And I will be making my way to your side of the bed all night
The way I have for all the nights of my life
Always to you
Siempre